Мысли сказанные в некуда

Dreams which never came true …

This is a partly translation of the article which appeared on Centrasia website last year.

I am a mother and my eyes are burnt by tears because of thousands of kids of my country spread all over the world. I am a mother and I know how intolerably painful and hard can be parting. Just look around, where did the whole generation disappear – the generation which was looking at us from widespread “Kamolot” posters, students of “Umid” (“Hope” – K.) foundation smiling happily during a memorable filming within the precincts of Uzbek Embassy in Washington DC – inspired kids that believed in building of notorious “great future” of Uzbekistan. Where is that bright generation that we rest our hopes upon, why they are not near us? Remember how many of your acquaintances, students, nephews and nieces left and never came back. Like continuous flow our children left looking for better lot, because of inability to find their niche here and stand on their feet independently. Those who were less lucky went for slavery in Russia and Kazakhstan where being cheated, blackmailed and disgraced, they work hard gritting their teeth and send money back home where their parents, totally forgotten by the state, barely make ends meet. At sorrow moments they can just listen to the song “Ulugimsan Vatanim” (patriotic song – K.) by Sevara Nazarkhan and cry, since homeland is no longer waiting for them. I brokenly grab the phone and ask how is my sonny, begging him to take care of himself. He tries to appease me, but my heart is breaking. And there are lots of those voices over phone, can you hear that? What a buzz is there over country because of endless roll-call.

Look around, what is left? Who took those places which were supposed to be taken by our happy kids? Where are our Rostropovich’s, Eisenstein’s, Maria Curies, Mendeleyev’s? Wandering in foreign countries, trying to find a use for their knowledge and ambitions they manage it. Where are our young politicians with reformatory thinking, who could yet make improving of the situation possible? Why everything is given to dozen of stealthy ministers jumping from one position to another but unchangeably sparkling in political arena? Where are our children willing to work hard for the welfare of the country, but rejected by the state and remaining in fact lonely? What for did we brought them up, cherishing them? What for did we teach them to love their land and to be generous and honest? My son has grown to be a leader, to create youth movements, to sky-rocket like a bird conquering new peaks. But where is the place for smart young men in our country, where they most likely to be trampled down and crucified …


Август 5, 2007 Posted by | Akuna - English, Государство, Общество | 2 комментария

What do Uzbek women think about sex?

This is a translation of the article which appeared on Centrasia website. Some parts are omitted.

So, imagine there is a charming young lady, physiologically ready for “exploits”. But what is inside her youthful mind? There is basically following: “No sex before marriage, because it is not permitted” – it means that she is morally confident that it is bad, thus not needed. “No sex before marriage, because no one will marry me” – that is orient social directive on pre-marriage virginity. Moreover, “No sex before marriage, what if I get pregnant?” – in other words – no idea about contraception, although she knows about abortion, but it is scaring, so the hell with damn sex.

Let’s suppose that the lady somehow followed the path of sin and vice and “lost” her virginity. If she had intimacy with the one who will marry her (either because of true love or because of threats), then at the first wedding night (in fact second) fiancé would cut, most probably, his finger to get some blood mixed with saliva and spread that on bed-sheet presented to all next day. If she took the same path but ended up alone she still has to get married and she needs to be “innocent”. In that case there is a place called TashMI 2 (Tashkent Medical Institute — Kamron) where they got used to make “sewing” as well as abortions. That means non-virgin lady is brought back to a previous stage.

There is certainly more problematic option, when the path ends with two lines on pregnancy test. Then she either has abortion secretly, followed by getting married being not virgin, or she keeps a child and forces him to marry blackmailing him. Another option is to remain alone with a baby and without any chances to get married.

Most probably she has a little idea about contraception. As for our men – they just don’t like it and say the same excuse like everywhere. Taking into account that man’s word is a rule for orient woman, you can hardly find anyone arguing with that. As a result women get a whole bunch of illnesses. As in other parts of the world our local men bring lots of muck to their women. My cousin having done the same justified himself saying that when he was in business trip he had stale bed-sheets in a hotel, may be that is why his wife got syphilis. He told me that in her presence, my jaws were about falling on the table, while his wife took that bull shit on trust. Later, of course, I told him everything I think about him and about power of his imagination, advising him to be more creative next time. But the fact is that 90% of Uzbek women believe in such fairy tales. So one can make conclusions about our ignorance in that field.

Moreover we still have that psychological phenomenon about “no sex before marriage” because it is simply not allowed. On the other hand TashMI 2 is actively operating along with that phenomenon … so these mutually exclusive things somehow get along in our country.

Finally, as a result of that kind of “no sex before marriage”, in Tashkent men can survive picking up a prostitute or finding European girl with a normal thinking or persuading open-minded Uzbek girl or … but in province where there are no Europeans and very few prostitutes one can find flourishing pederasty and zoophilia – sheep and donkeys are always available.

Август 2, 2007 Posted by | Akuna - English, Культура, Общество | 6 комментариев